Close ur heart, don't get hurt twice
Saturday, July 18, 2015 | 7:30 AM | 0 comments
Just a small confession of meI can't believe that after 3 years since my first time on september 2011, I fell in love again & again with the wrong guy.. I mean not wrong in bad way & he not a bad guy though..it just arggghh myself again fall for someone in wrong place, wrong time & wrong type of guy.. Re get hold of yourself, for pete's sake..he is someone's boyfriend.
My own biggest weakness that when I fall I fall too hard, when I love I love too much that I even can hurt my own inner self. Maybe my friends can bubbling that "Re, it just a tiny crush..you can get over him asap" , "Re, don't play with fire..He is someone's boyfriend" , "Re, I know you don't believe boys..stop melting for him" , "Re, time can heal..just be patient"...woahh there's a lot of Re here, Re there..thanks my beloved friends for care & do believe that I can forget him but even myself can't believe I will forget him, maybe not that fast. Even just 88days my love story go on with my ex, I can't forget him for almost 3 years & I can't imagine forgetting someone that I barely know for almost 4months already, it's even a longer time than knowing my first exboyfriend.
If I can tell, yes it's a true love of mine. True love at first sight maybe, He is perfectly definion of a guy that I dream of but the only problem he's not single but I put much hope that he will be single but how stupid I am for thinking like that. Tsk, why I even bother to fall in love. All this time, I just fine with no boys around me except my guys classmates & why it happened again, why I fall again? Why I put much hope for a guy? Why I want to keep hurting myself for twice? Why & why actually this happened?
Unrequited Love
Friday, July 10, 2015 | 1:41 AM | 0 comments
Reiy run to her locker to get some additional books when someone opened a locker beside her. Ohh it was the newcomer, a boy named Jackson. He gained popularity as soon as he stepped in this school about months ago, in the beginning of the senior year. Reiy glance at him, He not so that tall, probably 170cm and yet so handsome. He smiled to reiy and she replied with tiny smile too.“I want to talk to you later”, he said. Reiy looked at him in confusion. “But we’re in hurry right now, so yeahh you’ll have lunch with me, okay? “ Jackson said and he just walk away.
Reiy’s dropped her jaw, she barely knew him and he asked her to “have lunch” with him? God ! he was weird.
Reiy barely concentrated in the class because of that boy named Jackson. What did he want us to talk about? It was really rare that guys speak to her first. As soon as the break time bell was ringing, Reiy packed her books and got up.
“Where are you going?” asked Kara, one of her friends
“Lunch for sure”, Reiy answered
“Without us?” Reiy’s other friend, Hana, asked
“I – I have an appointment with someone, Yep” Reiy answered nervously
“With who?” Hana raised her eyebrows
“It’s not, I’m just. Okay, I’ll tell you guys after lunch, okay? Later guys !” Reiy said as she walked out of the class and she saw Jackson already waiting for her beside her locker.
“Hi” Reiy greeted him as she opened her locker and put unnecessary books away. “So what it is?” Reiy suddenly asked after she done her things.
“Woahh slow down girl, I got lunch for us. We won’t have lunch in cafeteria coz I have a better place, so let’s go !” Jackson just smiled ear to ear and waved two packs of sandwich and orange juice in his hands. Reiy followed him and finally sat down under a tree which now the leaves turned red and orange.
“Come on, sit here. You won’t get dirt on your skirt, hope so” He said. Reiy just nodded and sat beside him leaving some space between her and him. Jackson handed her the sandwich and orange juice.
As she accepted it and thanked him, She asked him again, “So what it is actually?”
Jackson was in the middle of biting the sandwich and his face turned red. “Are you close with that girl – uh – named Sarah?” he asked
Ah, so that’s what he wanted to know. Reiy smiled bitterly. “Yeah.. I am, “ Reiy answered shortly and continue sipping her orange juice
“Really?!” His eyes were beaming with joy. What are you to her? a BFF? Because I saw got off from her car this morning.”
“Were you stalking her?” Reiy asked jokingly
“No, no, no. I wasn’t and I’m not going to. I just – ermm – wanted to be close to her, but I have no idea how. I don’t know where to ask for information since I’m new here, until I saw you guys got off from the same car this morning. He stared at Reiy, Uncomfortable with the sudden eye contact, she looked away
“She is my cousin, I can help you”, Reiy said without looking at him.
Suddenly Jackson grabbed her wrist and become so excited “Really?! Whoaa, you’re the best !” he said excitedly.
Reiy just laughed because of his action. Suddenly, he stopped and rubbed the back of his neck. “Ermm.. I don’t know your name yet and probably you don’t know my name either. So.. I’m Jackson” he offered his hand for shake.
Reiy smiled and shook hands with him. “I’m Reiy.”
“Rainism? Jackson jokingly asked
“Haha whatever dude,” Reiy just slightly laugh with that kind of question
The end of us
Tuesday, June 9, 2015 | 1:33 AM | 0 comments
V’s POV“Let’s stop here, she says, as her voice cracks. My eyes widen as I look up to see her only for her to avoid my eyes. I open my mouth so she’ll stop but nothing comes out.
“Here..” she says suddenly. She places something in the palm of my hands but I already know what it is. Seeing it will only hurt me. Say something V ! The voice in my head keeps telling me. I try and try but nothing comes out.
My heart begins to pound, panicking for some reason. “I’ll be going out, don’t bother looking for me.” She says, followed up by a saddling laugh at the end. I watch her head out until the door slams shut behind her.
I don’t know what I was feeling. First I was yelling at her but now why I can’t talk? One part of me tells me to go look for her while the other tells me not to.
Feeling wet water sliding down my cheeks. I began to realize as I open my palms to take a look at the ring. Drip by drip, my tears began to fall. Finally knowing what all her questions, her words meant. I let out small sounds. I let her go because of my stupid mistakes.
I broke her, I hurt her and I broke us apart. “Don’t leave me..” I continue to talk even though she’s not here to hear it.
“Did our relationship mean anything to you?”
“It meant everything to me..”
“ V, did you even love me to begin with?”
“I’ve always loved you…”
The words that wouldn’t come out when she was here finally began to spill.
Why so handsome??
Monday, April 7, 2014 | 5:44 AM | 0 comments
Deary chan-chan..why u so handsome??
gerrr..i'm growling here..keke..
You are num 1 in my heart..Jackson comes 2nd okay